is again sending messages for me
This time I’m in a position
Not knowing what to do
I wish to stay with these friends of mine
And Struggle with all my pain
But the pain is worst and
Sad told this is not going to make me gain
So I’ve to obey the messenger of change
I’m guilty cause I can’t even ask for a chance
And this way its going to end
I wish I should have long before begun
with helpless and hopelessness
I accept the change
I wish this will change
And know change will always play its game
Read this poem by Ravi Chandran(who’s probably an amateur poet) here and I can very much relate to it so sharing here!
I dedicate this to all my loving friends whom I guess I won’t be seeing 5 days a week every week now. Luv u buddies..u r and will always be in my prayers!
PS: Havn’t got a chance to reply to comments on my previous posts, will do it as soon as I’m done wrestling with a gazillion problems that I’m facing for the past one week.
Deciding what is right, what is wrong; who is right, who is wrong; which path to follow and which not to and amidst this confusion, remaining all giggly while tears fill your eyes, just to make others around you, who are going through the same happy, is well DIFFICULT!
As always praying Allah(SWT) for guidance and everybody’s well-being.
For years I prayed Allah(SWT) for 3 things (along with several more ) which I thought I need as badly as oxygen but I just got 0.5 of the 3 things I prayed so hard for. When I came to know that I’m no way getting the 1st thing..I wept and mourned over it for months until I got the half of the 2nd thing; but when I didn’t get the remaining half, I cried this time not for months not even for weeks or days but for mere few hours. Today, when I came to know that I haven’t got the 3rd thing in the list as well, I at first felt a little down but this feeling didn’t last for more than 10 mins Sound of Azaan-e-Asr entered my ears, went to offer prayers and came back all refreshed. My faith tells me that He(SWT) has better plans for me and He(SWT) will never leave me disappointed. He is there to take care of all my problems and worries. Belief and patience is what brings peace of mind.
Has anyone of you ever wondered why children are so carefree? Out of many reasons, one is probably that they have this faith that their parents who are stronger than them are there to take care of them and solve all their problems. In a similar way, if we start believing that Allah(SWT) who’s the Almighty hence certainly stronger than us is there, and his love is 70 times stronger than that of our mother’s so, he’ll bring the BEST to us, life becomes a lot more beautiful and peaceful Alhamdulilah.
"O you who believe! Seek help with patient perseverance (sabr) and prayer…" (al-Baqarah 2:153)
Web reference is this
I read once that believers seek goodness and beauty in every event.I now understand it well
My good old friend SJ who just came back from Umrah, was visiting me today and was telling me what happened when she was selecting a gift for me there The conversation between SJ and her mother went something like this:
SJ: I need to buy a gift for Fari. What shall I buy?
SJ’s Mum: How about getting some cosmetics for her?
SJ: No..she’s not much fond of cosmetics.
SJ’s Mum: Ok, get some jewelery for her.
SJ: Jewelery..i don’t know if she’d like it,leave other things aside I don’t even see her wearing earrings often.
SJ’s Mum: Then get some clothes for her.
SJ: Hmmm…..but size….
SJ’s Mum(irritated): What else do u want to buy for her..a Computer?
ROFL ……..computer(MacBook Air to be precise) would have been a perfect gift
I never knew buying a gift for moi is sooo difficult and this conversation really made me laugh SJ finally got clothes for me…but size really is an issue, when I wear them, it looks as if I’m wearing thawb . But neway..who cares about size and appearance…feelings matter the most to me..even SJ’s prayers would have been enough
I wish you and your family members a very Happy Eid. May Allah(SWT) bless us all with what’s best for us here and hereafter. May this Eid and all the days to come turn out to be great for us all. Ameen.
..and as always there are some people who are greatly missed on such occasions. Missing my lovely baba Please take a moment to say Qul for him or perhaps pray for him in your own little way.
Prayers for you all!