Sometimes….
Sometimes you are just feeling down without any perceptible reason. Seemingly u may be laughing, enjoying yourself out but deep down inside u have this feeling that something is missing or perhaps something is going to go wrong. One reason for this downheartedness could be fear…..the fear of losing something or someone beloved. Sometime back I commented on someone’s blog that “worrying needlessly brings in more problems” but I feel now I myself ‘am falling victim to “needless worrying”. Apparently everything seems to be going pretty well in my life Alhamdulilah but I have got this feeling of void…there is a lot more that I want out of my life not in terms of materialistic wealth but definitely in terms of knowledge and social service. I want to gain more and more knowledge about my field and about deen.
The other thing that is disturbing me is the fear of losing my loved ones and my values and principles in search of satisfaction….in search of knowledge…good job….better education……I’m just feeling weird….I hope things get better with time
Also I’m feeling guilty…..what my family has done for me up until now can simply not be put into words…..they have done everything they could to comfort me and to give me a bright future….they still are doing , however, will I ever be able to repay even the smallest part of what they have done for me??
With such thoughts going inside my small head…i want to cry out loudly like this baby in the pic and wish my father comes…picks me up to calm me and hugs me tightly….miss u baba…I miss u :’( 
Image Credit:Myflipcorner
Don’t do anything that goes against the basic values ingrained in you, howsover great the ‘gains’ that you might seemingly have to forego in return, if it is true that what you want out of life is not in terms of “materialistic wealth but definitely in terms of knowledge and social service”.
Comment by Sidhusaaheb — April 22, 2008 @ 12:27 pm
For me, Life is like a river … do you know who drives the water?
Between, earlier I thought I am only victim of this but its not like that
Comment by Muhammad Qasim Pasta — April 22, 2008 @ 2:51 pm
Don’t worry, everything’ll be alright. You just have to hold on to your faith. On a lighter note, when you cry do you resemble the baby in the picture?
Comment by SAWJ — April 22, 2008 @ 3:25 pm
Oh dear … this state of confusion will disappear inshah allah … hold on to the faith in yourself and u’ll do that, I’m sure *Thumbs Up*
And LOLZ @ SAWJ’s comment … waqayi .. wanna share a video too
*Tight Tight Hugs for ya untill you gets suffocated
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Uncle would have been very happy to see his children all-wise (I guess :~P ) and if he’s not there in person with you his prayers will always remain with you people throughout your lives
Comment by Asma — April 23, 2008 @ 11:57 am
this will give some answers
Comment by Ahmad — April 23, 2008 @ 12:09 pm
This phase of life will move on very soon Inshallah.And its very true that apparently
everything seems perfect in the context but inside we remain scared of unseen events
on which we dont have any control.But as you said of strong belief that is great
blessing which would never let you stumble.Cheer up!!
Comment by aashely — April 24, 2008 @ 7:32 pm
It’s jsut teh hormones, trust me you will get over it. I used to ahve so many of these thoughts that used to scare me, all’s settled now Alhamdulilah yet they make sure to sprout…:p
Comment by unaiza nasim — April 30, 2008 @ 9:52 am
cha tension ahay adi!
*jaadu ki khappi*
Comment by ghazal pirzada — May 1, 2008 @ 5:53 pm
this ’sometimes’ feeling had been there with me, if you believe, every months… It’s bn sm mnths tht the feeling has vanisehd away… know why??? read my entry of 2nd May on my blog…!!!
n i’m serious when m writng this!!
Comment by Raz — May 7, 2008 @ 10:27 pm
What about those people have been unhappy and feeling down for most of their lives with trials and tribulations?
what would you like to say to them? And what about those who are happy and unconcerned for others and surprisingly dont have to undergo difficult times in their lives?
Comment by Shaykh — May 8, 2008 @ 4:14 pm
@Shaykh
I believe there must be very few people who don’t get a single chance to be happy. The best we can do about it is to try and give them that chance when we meet them.
I think part of it is luck, and part of it is your own self. No one said life was fair.
Comment by waqas — May 12, 2008 @ 5:17 pm
accha tu aur ?
Comment by Asma — May 13, 2008 @ 8:40 am
” I want to gain more and more knowledge about my field and about deen.”
thats the sign of an active mind not a needlessly worrying person.
we sometime go through this during the phase of self searching but it depends where you take it
and i hope it will lead you to something good.
Comment by Faisal — May 18, 2008 @ 12:03 pm
bas karain abb? updato!
Comment by Asma — May 19, 2008 @ 10:11 am
MashAllah! Really glad to see people who strive for deen in these turbulent times. May Allah give us all internal satisfaction and i have no doubt that it comes with deen.
Really glad for coming across your blog
Comment by M Junaid Khan — May 25, 2008 @ 12:13 am
A void is a good thing, it means there is room for something. All progress, good and bad, has been made due to this void. Learning is a life-long process, keep it that way. Eager minds want knowledge, but knowledge is not bound by their expectations. If you keep learning, it will change you, possibly at a fundamental level even, its part of the package so be prepared for it.
Going for your ambitions leaves casualties behind, something loved will need to sacrificed, make good choices. There is no shame in material progress, otherwise its like saying ‘I want everything for my soul but nothing for my body’, which is material but equally important. Dont repay your loved ones, they are not a bank and this is not a business transaction, do something new for them. Finally, stop crying this is just the beginning.
Comment by Raza Ali — June 19, 2008 @ 12:08 am