Sometimes you are just feeling down without any perceptible reason. Seemingly u may be laughing, enjoying yourself out but deep down inside u have this feeling that something is missing or perhaps something is going to go wrong. One reason for this downheartedness could be fear…..the fear of losing something or someone beloved. Sometime back I commented on someone’s blog that “worrying needlessly brings in more problems” but I feel now I myself ‘am falling victim to “needless worrying”. Apparently everything seems to be going pretty well in my life Alhamdulilah but I have got this feeling of void…there is a lot more that I want out of my life not in terms of materialistic wealth but definitely in terms of knowledge and social service. I want to gain more and more knowledge about my field and about deen.
The other thing that is disturbing me is the fear of losing my loved ones and my values and principles in search of satisfaction….in search of knowledge…good job….better education……I’m just feeling weird….I hope things get better with time
Also I’m feeling guilty…..what my family has done for me up until now can simply not be put into words…..they have done everything they could to comfort me and to give me a bright future….they still are doing , however, will I ever be able to repay even the smallest part of what they have done for me??
With such thoughts going inside my small head…i want to cry out loudly like this baby in the pic and wish my father comes…picks me up to calm me and hugs me tightly….miss u baba…I miss u :’(