FarQuest Fariha's Quest: Finding an answer to the question "Why can’t Utopia be a reality?" Wish to add some colors of Utopia to this world because I dare to dream and strive to turn my dreams into reality!

                 

Sometimes you are just feeling down without any perceptible reason. Seemingly u may be laughing, enjoying yourself out but deep down inside u have this feeling that something is missing or perhaps something is going to go wrong. One reason for this downheartedness could be fear…..the fear of losing something or someone beloved. Sometime back I commented on someone’s blog that “worrying needlessly brings in more problems” but I feel now I myself ‘am falling victim to “needless worrying”. Apparently everything seems to be going pretty well in my life Alhamdulilah but I have got this feeling of void…there is a lot more that I want out of my life not in terms of materialistic wealth but definitely in terms of knowledge and social service.  I want to gain more and more knowledge about my field and about deen.

The other thing that is disturbing me is the fear of losing my loved ones and my values and principles in search of satisfaction….in search of knowledge…good job….better education……I’m just feeling weird….I hope things get better with time

Also I’m feeling guilty…..what my family has done for me up until now can simply not be put into words…..they have done everything they could to comfort me and to give me a bright future….they still are doing , however, will I ever be able to repay even the smallest part of what they have done for me??

With such thoughts going inside my small head…i want to cry out loudly like this baby in the pic and wish my father comes…picks me up to calm me and hugs me tightly….miss u baba…I miss u :’( 

Image Credit:Myflipcorner

Around 10 months back when i started my full-time job..i had firmly decided i would never let my work life disturb my family life…things went smoothly as I wanted them to go for a few weeks but then I became a machine….working day’n'night…..i got a lot of respect Alhamdulilah…importance..performance bonuses…recognition….offers to lead the team(which I turned down when I resigned…yup…I have RESIGNED) …but heck….i still feel I’m a LOSER…..i lost so many precious moments that I cud hav spent with my family…my mother…my brother…noone means to me more than they….I’m what I’m just because of my family….their support…their duaz……but it makes me feel pathetic to have realized now how much I have ignored my family and how have they kindly excused me everytime……i feel ashamed of myself….i feel I’m losing my allegiance to them….just for a few bucks….it’s just a bad deal….a worst decision that I never wanted to make but somehow my professional elements intruded in my personal space….but now I have decided to oust these intruders out of my life……work on restoring the work-family life balance back and don’t just be happy myself but above anything else…make my family happy……nothing worths the pleasant moments spent with one’s family…..I love u mummy, farhan and misss u baba

PS: If ur work is also taking over you personal life…u also oust the intruders out. Even though u can never recapture the lost time but u can still live thoroughly the times that have yet to come; by valuing ur family more than nething and neoone else.

Liar: I do not lie

Me (thinking): Your face shows it all babes and more importantly (in the words of Faisal Qureshi) "Don’t insult my intelligence" 

…and I hate it when people despite being on the wrong side, try to mould religion so as to use it to shield themselves.

Saw this in the signature of someone….it’s so good and since I myself ‘am a strong proponent of having a relatively "paperless" environment so, took it as a social responsibility to share it with others. Am about to add it to my signatrure as well

 A friend Ammar recently launched his project "Tea Break". Have a look at the following information  to see what his project is all about.

Ever wondered when you are stuck in some boring Office work, College Assignment, Project with haunting deadlines or University Midterm What is one thing that you want the most?

You need a breeeeeeakkkkkkkkkkkk, my friend. And what other better way to relax in this cyber world when everything is just a click away

Ladies and Gentlemen I give you:

link the logo = www.teabreak.pk/

Take a hot cup of tea and have a mind blogging experience with Teabreak.

So what is so special about Tea-break?

Tea Break not only provides blog readers a place where they can have both national and international blogs on one page but it also provides the bloggers a platform to launch their write ups and increase the readership of their already established Blog.

In short we are trying to bring every blogo maniac together and establish a huge blog forum.

How to join Teabreak?

• Join TeaBreak by following: http://site.teabreak.pk

• Invite friends: http://site.teabreak.pk/invite.php

Other Important things you want to know about Teabreak.pk

How does it work?

                                                         How to reach us?

Source of information: Ammar’s blog post

                          

 
PS: 1st April marks the birthday of my dear father. If you are reading this, please take a moment to say Qul for him

Image Credit. Vision Forum

Imagine ur brother…yes ur very own brother calling ur boss and here’s how the conversation goes like:

Bro: Is Fariha there?

Boss: Yes…she’s here

Bro: Tell her to throw her cellphone in the trash bin….it’s just not for people like her. I hav called her twice and she’s not answering…must be busy prating

Boss(Showing all his 32 teeth…oh btw I still have doubt…i guess he’s got 28 and not really 32)-Jee jee…she’s here..bethi batain karrahi thi

Bro: Iss ko tight rakho warna yeh tumhain barbaad kardegi.

Hain hain hain…tight rakho…what does bro mean by tight rakho and he who claims to have the intelligence to be more boss….huh…how could he be so stupid……he could have avoided telling bhai that I’m actually busy talking…..but nahi ..he din’t….instead came out of his room proudly planning about how would he "tight rakho" me….oh Mr…don’t u ever even think about tight rakho me…I’ll quit job, start my own venture and will acquire ur teeny weeny organization and will sack u out…got it!

And both u guys…2 Bs…bro and boss….u have broken my heart today…I thought I look good and sound good when I talk and I actually add to ur knowledge but ahhh..this conversation has really made me feel ashamed of myself…..from now on I’ll be mute…..so be ready for that!

PS: Boss is a friend and hasn’t yet become my boss formally so I have the freedom to speak against him in public without any chances of being dooced  

Last Tuesday I got the priviledge to go for an Executive Lunch with CEO Nuvica Pakistan Mr. Ali Raza Shaikh, BDM Nuvica Pakistan Ms. Lubna and (prospective) SQA Lead Ms. Fariha (I swear this is not bragging )
It was really funny to have the two serious people trying to convince a pretty non serious person (yeah moi moi) to be serious about life and career…he he; while I kept enjoying my chinese fried rice and trying to understand who the heck in this world eats CHINESE fried rice with tomatoes and cumcumber which in sliced form were kept above the mountain of rice in my plate…if this was garnishing then I’m sorry i’m not impressed and mind u the place we went to have lunch at is a pretty famous one…after all the CEO was paying

During lunch I was also busy eyeing on the CEO sahib’s sleak and shiny Nokia E51 but before I could snatch it from his hand and start playing with it…he slipped it inside his pocket Then I had no option but to listen to the Bakri Development Manager …jee jee Lubz is working on Bakri’s development program and as a part of it she refused to eat anything but just munch on salad….that too not the achi si pizza hut waali salad but the plain salad. Further to add to these frustrations…..one of the waiters with 4-6 cups of yummy looking ice cream in his tray passed me while I kept sighing….yes…the CEO and BDM din’t get me even one such cup of ice cream…….choti si bachi par itna zulm….but ah…u don’t know these big famous people…they don’t hav a heart

Btw I have just realized that this post qualifies to be put under the "Blogo Exaggeration" category. However on a serious note, I started writing it with the intention to thank Ali and Lubz for this wonderful wonderful lunch that they planned just to cheer me up…..THANK U both buddies I really enjoyed! Feeling blessed to have friends like you Alhamdulilah who are still with me after I have scared away a few "I’ll be always there for u" types telling them about my worries…khee khee! 

Disclaimer: This post is not for publicity purposes of Nuvica Pakistan….even though the crazy beings that I’ve talked about are associated with Nuvica but they became my friends when there was nothing such as Nuvica Pakistan so, therefore, I got a chance to have an informal lunch with them

The long awaited SI Session 7 is here!

Date: Saturday, March 22 2008
Time: 3 pm - 6 pm
Venue: PixSense (172/P Najeeb Corner, 4th floor, Block 2 PECHS, Karachi)

For details follow the links below:

Jehan Ara’s blog

Jawwad’s blog

Those who have missed the previous sessions should try not to miss this one. I shall be there too InshAllah if this evil flu that I’m under an attack of these days doesn’t get worst

Hamad(my 6 year old li’l friend): Aunty, I’m going to ur place today with u

Aunty(i.e. moi): Theek hai (I said so since he lives in the same appartments where I live)

Hamad: I’m going to see your bedroom as well

Aunty: Ok

Hamad: Aunty aap k paas koi beta ya beti hai?

Aunty: Oops….he he he….NO

The only purpose of this cute little fella behind visiting my place was to get a new friend and he had assumed that since I’m an AUNTY so I probably have kids whom he would play with….Lolzz But as soon as he heard me saying No…he cancelled his plan to come to my home…poor baby